Job hunting again.

I’m back on the job hunt market and started applying again. I did before Chinese New Year but it wasn’t very aggressive hunting unlike when we were looking for life insurance quotes in Switzerland. Now that February is almost over – I did promise Nil that I would start looking again after Chinese New Year – it’s time to dust off my resume and start…well, hunting.

While part of me is excited about the prospects of going back to work, a HUGE part of me is, well, feeling quite torn and forlorn about the whole thing.

It’s a hard decision to make; in fact, I am very reluctant to do it but we have to because we need the extra cash and well, Eva is old enough, I figured. Still, I can’t help but wonder sometimes if this is a good idea – to leave her in the care of someone who doesn’t know her very well or could subscribe to different caring methods that I do. Then there are things to plan and worry about like how to continue breastfeeding her while putting her on solids that I’ve cooked and so forth.

It is at times like this that I really wish I was into lotteries and Totos, actually buy them, and then actually win them so that I could spend all my time watching my children grow up before my eyes instead of digesting them through someone else. I guess for some of us, you could say that once you are a SAHM, it’s hard to go back to work again.

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  1. Perhaps do some calculation as to how you much you will actually earn… after paying the babysitter, transportation, taxes, etc… you may find out you actually do better as a SAHM

    Mabel Reply:

    Yes, we’ve actually considered all those things and it’s still better financial for me to go back to work. Unfortunately, that is. :/

  2. SAHMs get to witness all the important milestones and bond very well with the children. If you love taking care of Eva full-time, it is certainly a tough decision to return to work.

    In my case, it would definitely be financially better to return to work; but we choose to let the non-financial benefits outweigh other considerations. Having me as a full-time mother and educator means I get to provide my boy (and future children) with the necessary mental stimulation and family values, which are extremely important in the first few years.

    For instance, full-time cloth-diapering, breastfeeding (without supplementary milk feeds) and home-cooked meals are more achievable when I am at home.

    In your field, is it possible to work from home, have flexi-hours or work part-time?

    Mabel Reply:

    Flexi-hours are possible then again, who would want to give out a work permit for someone who works flexi-hours or part-time? :/

    It does really look like I have to go back to work but this is something that I really want to discuss again because I don’t quite fancy the whole supplementary FM feeds. Cloth diapering and home cooked meals are still do-able with a babysitter. But the 100% BFing is going to be tough as my supply is just enough for her feeds and I don’t have excess to pump out. :S

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