What it’s like so far.

Her many facial expressions...

Being a mum, that is.

Gone are those nights where I can truly sleep for 8 hours straight. In its place are night feeds and diaper changes every three to four hours. I can’t say for sure that I’m used to it neither can I say that I’m not used to it. It’s…well, another one of those challenges in life.

Gone are the days where I can do stuff without a care in the world – as in not worry about that little bundle snoozing away. A mother’s instinct, some people would call it, is at work now. For me, what’s important right now is what she needs. And yes, I worry even more now but it’s mostly for her benefit! Everyone else, and sometimes sad to say, even Nil takes backseat although I still do make time and effort to spare him some cuddles and smooches.

Gone are the days where I can simply ignore what people say about those I love. Sorry but no one disses my kid and gets away with it – even my parents. While she may not fully understand the implication of words spoken to her, I don’t want to encourage negative comments neither do I want to surround her with it.

I look at this little bundle of joy who is more precious than gems like this heart pendant jewelry and utterly heartwarming only to tell myself sometimes that the misery, the sleepless nights and the worrying is well worth it all.

Sometimes I get teary eyed, feeling all blessed to have such a gorgeous bundle and then a few hours later into the night, God gently reminds me that it’s not all pink and roses – that this gorgeous bundle comes with lots of responsibility and care, not just fun, fun, and more fun.

You know the old saying “God couldn’t be everywhere so He made mothers”. I think it’s more than just that. I think God made mothers (and fathers) to share with us the divine joy and heartache of being a parent. After all, He is the ultimate example of parenthood.

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  1. i found your site by searching for knitting patterns. i will have to say that your thin diamond scarf is amazing and i will give it a go. i’m not new to knitting, but i am trying to expand my horizons. i have a 17 month old son and i stay at home most days with him (work twice a week). due to me bringing home less money, i am trying to gift everyone with hand mades. i wouldn’t have it any other way, of course, being at home with my little man. he’s amazing, now. reading your blog really took me back to when he was not so amazing. always beautiful, and we always loved him, but he screamed for the first 9 months. all the time. i didn’t sleep, i didn’t eat, and i was trying to take care of all those things that stay at home moms do. it was crazy and it’s a long story, but those first 6-9 months are so slow and almost routinely boring (eat, sleep, diaper, eat, sleep, diaper). after that when your baby starts moving on her own, look out. crawling, walking, talking, eating less often, sleeping less often, diapering less often…it gets pretty interesting. very fun.
    anyways, that’s enough and probably more than you wanted to hear from a complete stranger. i look forward to your etsy shop returning to see the rest of your designs. happy mothering and happy crafting.

    Mabel Reply:

    Thanks for the heads-up and for sharing your experiences as a mummy!

    I’m beginning to see the joys in being at home with her – I get to witness and experience a lot of her milestones and wouldn’t trade them for anything else in the world!

    As for my etsy store, I’m really hoping to get it back on track soon…but it would appear that my yarn stock is still on its way here by boat. Gah. 😛

  2. Aww… Eva is so so adorable, I just feel like pinching her chubby cheeks!!

    On another note, it has been quite a long time since I have last dropped by. Haven’t done much blog-hopping myself too, busy with work and all. So you’re now Singapore? How long will you be in Singapore? I’ve been skimming 3 or 4 pages of your archives, and haven’t gotten there yet, LOL.

    Take care, Mei 🙂

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