It feels weird knowing that your loved one will be going away for a long time. It’s like the days are slowing flying by and all you can think about is how much you’re going to miss him/her when they are gone.
Suddenly it feels like there is nothing else in the world but the both of you. More room for cuddles, more time for sharing kisses and somehow, you just seem to understand each other completely.
And at the end of it, you feel like you could never be more in love with this person than that very moment in time.
He’s leaving next Tuesday for home. My last day with him will be on Sunday since he’s flying off from Singapore. There is this strange feeling of foreboding and yet a little glimmer of excitement as he returns home to his family, friends and his home country. Nothing is as bad as it sounds and every experience is worth cherishing. If anything, I want him to be happy going home. Happy to be in the company of loved ones and friends again.
Now it’s really going to translate to a long distance relationship. Before it was just an eight-hour train ride. Now it’ll be a twenty-hour flight. I’d joke about how we have progressed; I’d talk about how this is the perfect opportunity to see if our love can withstand all odds, as cliche as it sounds. But you know how it is with long distance relationships and love. A lot don’t make it (like my previous relationship) and the some that do (think of a fellow blogger) would tell you that hard work and effort were some of the ingredients to their success.
O’well…at least we have come to this point in time where we have the Internet, MSN and all that to help us keep in touch, not to mention friends and side-projects (for me, at least). I have to finish up that whole storage box filled with yarn; am planning to finish the scarf I just started (will put pics of it soon) and I want to learn to knit sweaters!
Yes, I’ll admit, I’m going to cry like a baby for the first few days and look utterly miserable, but hey…it’s not like it’s gonna be forever. I hope not.
Je t’aime de tout mon coeur, pour toujours, cheri. Je t’attendrai.